Alot Like Love

Okay okay, I haven't posted for a while and mostly because I haven't really been into the fells since my last entry, having been spending as much time as possible with my girlfriend who's now back. I won't even pretend I'm not excited by the prospect of having her within easy reach again; quite frankly, it's f***ing ace!

I apologise in advance to anyone reading this because it's a rant more than anything, just to get the ball rolling again. It's something I've noticed having seen quite a few Facebook relationship status' change recently from 'single' to 'in a relationship' which then proceeds to fill my homepage with loved up sickeningly nausiating messages about "Oh I love her so much", ane "We're so in love, nothing can possible break this apart"...then within 2 weeks, the status changes again closely followed by self-pitying melodramatic nonsense about broken hearts, ruined lives, and "How on earth will I ever heal?!" This kind of nonsense completely takes away from the meaning of what 'love' actually is! I mean, come off it...you've been stalking him for six months and he still doesn't even know you exist; you've not in love, you're a kid who's watched one too many chick flicks and gets excited by the prospect of your own Prince Charming sweeping you off your feet.

Now, before I get flamed for...well, being cynical, please don't think that I am. I do believe in love, I really do. It's been commercialised to the max by profit driven companies but the feelings are still there. I'm not completely against the idea of it, and I am guilty of going on a romantic streak, but these idiots who cheapen the word and then moan on and on about being heartbroken and never being able to survive after a breakup are ridiculous. I know what it's like to feel the loss of it, I've done it...albeit not for very long. My girlfriend and I went on a 'break' and I was broken, properly screwed up! I lost a stone in weight because I couldn't bring myself to eat, and I was just completely beyond reason. We're back together now, and have been for a while...if anything, we're even closer and I'm certain of one very important thing. I do actually know, without any shadow of a doubt, how much I love her. I am a complete sucker for her, to the point where I would travel through Hell, just for the chance to see her. I don't go broadcasting it all over Facebook because quite frankly, the only 2 people who need to know are her...and me. I've taken the time out to fall endlessly in love, and I will openly admit to anyone who asked just how much. It's all the things which nobody else notices that get me, all the ways she teases, and way that even though she never believes me when I say it, when she's covered head to toe in horsemuck (She has horses) she's still the most beautiful girl in my world. I love everything about this girl, and most importantly; I love her, and I love who I am when I'm with her. She makes me the man I am, and that is something I thank her for everyday...in my own way.

So, stop throwing the damn word around like a tennis ball because it has no meaning anymore. It's lost all it's meaning because it's been used and abused so much by people who have absolutely no understanding of what it is. Their favourite foods, colours, clothes, etc? The foods they really don't like? Their favourite hobby? Their quirky little features? All the things that make them...them? You know none of these things because you've not had the time to find out, or you haven't taken the time to learn...so how the hell can you profess undying love for a person you barely know? You don't love them...you just like them alot, and think that love sounds so much sweeter and more romantic without understanding the full context in which you use it.

Well...that's my rant over. On to more cheery subjects I think now.